Could it be....

...Have I been wrong all along, is less really more when it comes to makeup?!? Last night before bed (okay not bed... another 2 hours on the phone), I was just about to take off my makeup and I thought to myself "Self... I kinda like the smudged out/faded way my makeup looks now better than I liked it this morning when it was all neat and precise" Strange.... anyway, here's my makeup after about 17 hours of wear!

And here's what was left of my eye makeup...

This used to be.... "Print" (MAC) on the lid and outer corner, blended into "Satin Taupe" (MAC) in the crease, and "Kitten" (Stila) on the brow bone... with some winged liquid liner and maybelline "Falsies Flared" mascara.

So.... is understated the way of the future?





Currently Un-beautiful

Since this is a beauty blog, I will start with these facts... I just received a MAC package in the mail

Lady Bug Lipstick - Lustre Finish (a truly perfect red)

4 New Shadows to re-fill my "travel" MAC 4 pan palette

(Clockwise: Dazzlelight, Swish, Print, Texture) 

Anyway... though that package would have normally made my day... currently I am in hell. I don't normally post anything really personal here, it's pretty much JUST BEAUTY - but this is my blog (and I'm pretty sure no one really reads it anyway) so basically I can post what I want.

This has been the hardest week, and especially weekend of my life. And I don't mean hard in the way that you say when you get into a little argument with someone or worry that "Johnny" doesn't like you anymore. I mean life-alteringly hard. My mother is extremely ill. (haven't seen that written yet and I don't like how it looks) There have been health problems for a while, but the severity of things now, happened very suddenly. Serious is an understatement.

I must say... as a 27 year old, only child... whose mother is truly her best friend, I feel unhinged... and terrified. I feel nauseous constantly, anxious every minute. I am not dealing well... and I don't see how moving forward I will deal any better. I am so scared, and so sick, and so ill. I couldn't think of anything else to do but write about it... because writing has always been my form of release.

All I can tell you are the following things. If you love someone (even if they piss you off constantly!) just fucking tell them. If you're holding a grudge, just get over it. If someone has a request and you're simply too stubborn - suck it up!

And finally, if you're a praying person... please say a prayer for my mommy... it would mean the world to me.