Currently Un-beautiful

Since this is a beauty blog, I will start with these facts... I just received a MAC package in the mail

Lady Bug Lipstick - Lustre Finish (a truly perfect red)

4 New Shadows to re-fill my "travel" MAC 4 pan palette

(Clockwise: Dazzlelight, Swish, Print, Texture) 

Anyway... though that package would have normally made my day... currently I am in hell. I don't normally post anything really personal here, it's pretty much JUST BEAUTY - but this is my blog (and I'm pretty sure no one really reads it anyway) so basically I can post what I want.

This has been the hardest week, and especially weekend of my life. And I don't mean hard in the way that you say when you get into a little argument with someone or worry that "Johnny" doesn't like you anymore. I mean life-alteringly hard. My mother is extremely ill. (haven't seen that written yet and I don't like how it looks) There have been health problems for a while, but the severity of things now, happened very suddenly. Serious is an understatement.

I must say... as a 27 year old, only child... whose mother is truly her best friend, I feel unhinged... and terrified. I feel nauseous constantly, anxious every minute. I am not dealing well... and I don't see how moving forward I will deal any better. I am so scared, and so sick, and so ill. I couldn't think of anything else to do but write about it... because writing has always been my form of release.

All I can tell you are the following things. If you love someone (even if they piss you off constantly!) just fucking tell them. If you're holding a grudge, just get over it. If someone has a request and you're simply too stubborn - suck it up!

And finally, if you're a praying person... please say a prayer for my mommy... it would mean the world to me.